Drum Journey (Recording): ~15 minutes
This journey was to inquire about what to do with my home as part of my divorce. I received something unexpected. I traveled to Lower World. As I dropped down onto the sand in the usual spot, I noticed that I was wearing the same muslin clothing that I usually do. But this time, I realized that I have been wearing the same colors and styles in OR, but in cotton. Hummingbird met me and took me directly to Tree. I placed my hands on Tree's trunk and felt my hands sinking into the bark. I rested my head against the trunk and the same thing happened. I realized I was being invited to merge with Tree, so I did. Immediately, I was transported up to the edges of the branches and could see all across Lower World's terrain. I asked the question about what will happen/what can I do about my home. I looked out to my left and saw the house on a clearing in the land. It was on fire, but not being damaged. I also saw there was damage, but then it was reversed immediately. I saw a white light dome over the building and although there was fire, the building remained unharmed. I received the message that no matter what happens, my home will be protected. Suddenly, I heard the drumbeat get louder in my head. It almost began to echo. I felt dizzy and unmerged from Tree. I lay down at his base and Tree's roots rose up to create a bed for me. I lay there for some time. In a moment, I felt the ground beneath me shift and give way. I dropped down into a dark underground space with many hallways and openings like a catacomb. Hummingbird was with me. It was not clear where I was, but I felt safe enough to investigate. As I did, I felt the presence of other beings. I asked Tree and Hummingbird what this was. Tree said, This is the dwelling place of spirits of those gone by. Some care about you, some don't, but none will harm you... These are the spirits of those beings—plants, insects, animals—whose death is related to your life either directly or indirectly. This could be food you ate, an insect you killed, an obituary you read... I asked if my father was here. Tree told me that he is everywhere, but yes, some part of him can be present here. I asked if I could see the spirits. I wasn't able to, but I knew that I could feel them if I wanted to, so I stood still and asked them to come to me and let me know they were there. I felt nothing for a long time, then I felt a cold, clammy presence on the surface of my skin. Not unpleasant, but distinct. I asked how I might work with them. How could I step into work with my spirit world helpers? I heard the answer that all I have to do is do it. There is no barrier between spirit and me. Never has been. I have just created one because I am in human form now. I spent some time in the catacombs. At one point, I saw my father as a young man. I was putting cream on his right forearm. Soon after this image, the callback sounded. I thanked the spirits, Hummingbird, and Tree and returned.
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Drum Journey (Recording): ~15 minutes
Note: This journey took place on 1/11/2019 I went to Lower World to meet again with all my helping spirits at the Sacred Fire. To my surprise, we all lifted in the air and flew north across LW to a large field. The helping spirits all circled around me and the Sacred Fire also appeared in the center of the circle. Reeds Blowing came forward and announced that From now forward you will be known as Nashawe in this place. This will be your name. This is who you are. He handed me a long staff that had blue fabric wrapped around it, and glistening stones embedded in it. There were also owl feathers (donated from Owl) hanging from the top. I was given a flower crown and a waist wrap that kept changing colors.* Then, each one of the helping spirits came and greeted me as Nashawe, some with a gift and some with a hug or a small bow. It was a brief but very satisfying journey. I felt connected and peaceful when the callback came. I thanked all the helping spirits and returned to OR. *I had just taken psilocybin, so that might have influenced it, but I believe it was too early in the trip to have had this visualization. I rather think that my traveling mind was indecisive. :) Drum Journey (Recorded drumming): ~15 minutes
My intention was to discover what was at the source of my leg pain and emotional pain. Was there some traumatic event from my past that I have been blocking and it is now manifesting in physical pain? I was called to Upper World. This time when I arrived, it was not at the usual location. Typically I travel up and up, then am guided to the right, where the entrance to UW is. This time, I traveled straight up until I saw the pink membrane separating worlds. I passed through it, and found myself at the edge of the White Forest. I walked along the squishy pink membrane until I reached the forest. Hummingbird arrived to guide me. I asked if we were going to see Reeds Blowing, and Hummingbird said we were. I was happy because I haven't visited him in some time. I began, with Hummingbird's help, to gather my usual offering of wildflowers. Hummingbird brought me a branch of berries. I found a purple lupine and some yellow flowers as well. Suddenly, I became aware of a heavy pressure in my center. My torso was dark and lead-like. I was unable to move much farther. I lay down on the forest floor and told Hummingbird I could not walk anymore. Presently, the ground swallowed me up and I lay a couple of feet or so beneath the surface. I felt the cold of the soil and smelled its richness. I could breathe, but I could not move my hands or legs. It was not unpleasant, although I wondered what was happening. Just then, my insides sprouted. The black, lead-like presence was a seed that was germinating out of my body. Very quickly, the sprout became a large black tree with rainbow-colored leaves. I rolled out from under the tree and came to the surface where I lay and looked up at the tree. My center was hollow, but my body was sealed up. as I looked at the tree, I saw that a good number of the leaves were becoming black. Hummingbird told me that this tree was directly connected to me and my life. The leaves were dying and it was my job to bring them back to their colorful state. "How do I do that?" I asked. You can't. Once they are dead, they are dead, he said. This task seemed impossible and I became sad. At this time, Reeds Blowing appeared behind me. We regarded the tree together. I explained what I had been told and lamented that I could not do what was asked of me. I had no idea how. Reeds Blowing reminded me that leaves drop with the season. Perhaps all these leaves will die, but there will be buds in the spring. Where will you be in March? We merged so that I could feel vitality again and also so that we could travel quickly back to his tree cave at the swamp. Once there, he made a tea of local plants that he brewed over a fire in the cave. The tea was going to replace the insides of me that had been lost. As I drank it, I asked if he could help me discover what happened to me, if anything, that may be causing my pain. He lay me down and moved his hands across me. There has been a lot of healing already, he said. There is a resilience here. He indicated my stomach area. I could tell that did not mean that I was healed or that nothing happened, but that I had protected myself for a long time. Those reinforcements were apparent. At this time, the Callback sounded. Reeds Blowing said that we would continue the work another time. I thanked him and returned, thanking the Black Tree on my way past. Thanks to Hummingbird, as well! Returned to OR Drum Journey (Recorded drumming): ~15 minutes
Lower World As I began my journey to LW, descending the rocks that lead to the hot springs, I felt as though the spirit of Grey Wolf Mother was with me. In fact, as I dove into the spring, I could feel her jump in next to me and travel all the way down. I landed in my usual stance—one knee down, bent, hand on the ground to steady me—I felt her land beside me, only now she was not in spirit form anymore, but fully visible to me. She urged me to walk with her, then climb on her back. Once I did, I merged with her—front legs were my arms and hands, back legs were my legs—and we ran through the terrains of LW. Soon, she/we became giant and we covered much more ground. She/we stopped at the edge of a field. She walked very deliberately through the field to a forest, then into the thick of the forest. There, we found a clearing where there was a fire already made. I unmerged and sat with her by the fire. "I wish Reeds Blowing were here as well," I said. And then he was. He sat opposite me, next to Grey Wolf Mother. Grey Wolf Mother has been my companion—our companion—for a very long time. She has helped in times of confusion and fear. She has attacked enemies and eaten them. GWM's mouth was suddenly full of blood. She licked her lips and it disappeared. "Did you ever have confusion and fear?" I asked. When I was in the human world and torn by human concerns. She was there for me then. She is here for you now. RB put a hand on GWM's head and she licked his face. She will be strong for you and help you through this journey. Your time of Nashawe is coming close. GWM came to me and I thought she might be loving to me as well. I was not afraid, but I could soon tell she was not about to lick me. Instead, she bit my left hand, then my right. It did not hurt, but it was shocking. She licked the blood from each of my hands. Now she has your blood in her. She is connected to you. [I began to weep in OR.] GWM went back over to RB and lay down next to him. But she soon bolted upright and looked off to my left. Thundering sound. A huge elephant stormed through the forest and stopped at the edge of our clearing. GWM began to howl in what I assumed was a greeting. Elephant responded with a loud trumpeting call. Elephant then curled its trunk around me and hoisted me in the air. RB laughed, Never forget! For your exam. You won't forget what you need to know. "A bit obvious, don't you think?" I joked. Elephant put me down and RB came to me. We will all be here for you. He wrapped his cloak around me and then placed his hands on my shoulders. Just then Hummingbird arrived and hovered by my ear. He placed something in each ear (liquid) with his tongue. Maybe spirit saliva. Who knows? Then GWM let me know we needed to return. I merged with her again and we came back to the Sacred Fire Circle by the LW entrance point. Elephant came with us, running and bounding across the landscape. I thanked them all (RB and Hummingbird remotely), then prepared to return. GWM leapt into the tunnel with me, again assuming spirit form. Callback When I arrived at the top of the hot springs, she jumped up and walked with me up to the cliff edge. Return to OR Drum Journey (Self-drumming): ~10 minutes Upper World When I arrived, I was prostrate on the bricks leading to the Hall of Knowledge. I stood up and retrieved my drum from its space by the entry. I continued to walk, with purpose, past the Hall and behind it, even though I was unsure where I was going. The path led into a snowy area. The snow became white crystals. I kept walking. Past the crystal land, the landscape became cloudy, as though I were walking in fog. The drum scooped me up and I rode in it, floating through the fog. I saw now that it was smoke. The drum was bing smudged by burning leaves. They were long and thin leaves. I saw the word sativa in the air. The drum showed me that I could smudge it by blowing this smoke on it. I asked what other offerings I could make. Just then, the spirit of the buffalo whose hide is on my drum came to me again. It was grazing. On the ground were purple flowers with a yellow center. They may have been like this thunbergia erecta flower shown. Buffalo told me that I could find these and leave them as an offering. Also, leaving a "spirit meal" of corn meal is also a good idea. Now the drum was in front of me and I gazed into it. The drum face became a scrying mirror, and I saw the faces of all my relatives—back as far as my great-grandparents. Once the faces moved through, one by one, my father's returned. He was mouthing something, but I could not understand. Then I heard, "The root is real" repeated over and over. I was moved to see my father's face and wanted to communicate with him. But just as I got emotional, he sent a burst of fire across the drum head, blazing out all the images there. Callback I thanked the CHSes and left. Return to Ordinary Reality |
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