Drum Journey (Recording): ~15 minutes
I went to the sacred fire. Along the way I saw an eel and and ermine. When I got the fire, all the Compassionate Helping Spirits were gathered and waiting for me. I greeted them and asked, "Where will I find the teacher I need for drum healing?" There was a collective answer from them all that came through the fire:
"You are like a tiger that has been kept too long in a cage. He is not living as his true self. You are like this. Look into the fire."
I did as I was told and saw a female shaman dancing around the fire with bare feet and many robes. She beat a drum and spun wildly around in a trance. I merge with her for a brief moment and felt completely at peace, but immediately was drawn back out.
"This is one of your previous selves. You have forgotten what it's like to be in this state. You will need to teach yourself again. You are your teacher.
"Drum every day for 30 days..." Then Reeds Blowing amended. "...fifty days."
"Drum every day for 50 days, and you will begin to learn the ways of the drum. Begin March 25 of this year. Now dance around the fire with your self."
I began to dance, but felt the familiar anxiety of not being good enough, of being a fake. I wanted to dance the feeling away, but I remembered that I cannot do that; I have to embrace the self that is afraid. She emerged as a child of about seven or eight. I removed a feather from my headdress and gave it to her. She held it and we danced around the fire together, holding hands. At one point, she transformed into a blue bird that few around us. She became a kangaroo, a rabbit, and then a great wave of water. The water released and spilled around the fire circle, seeping into the earth.
I continued to dance. There was now a drum in my hand. I felt more connected. I allowed the journey drumbeats to become the beats I was playing. I could hear high and low tones. I felt vibrations in my body.
I thanked my CHSes at the sacred fire.
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